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| i think i'm back. |
[29 Dec 2008|05:17am] |
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New Years Resolution:
CONNECT MORE
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| i bought a lens for 100 dollars. i fear itll be made of cardboard and compact mirrors. |
[27 Jul 2008|07:40pm] |
http://www.blindness-themovie.com/
I can't fucking wait. I'm so out of touch, I had no idea they were making it into a movie!
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[12 Jul 2008|03:06am] |
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I had this sensation that made my body feel as if I were going to die. It came with yes, hyper ventilation and a severe sense of panic. This was of course a panic attack. I haven’t slept on my days off much because I keep dreading going back. My mom sees this all and she forces herself into my life by calling out for me. It did get me off. So she pushes me and tells me to stop moping and go rent the lens before the place closes. So I go and they’re like, well sure 75 to rent but you have to leave two grand and some change on your credit card as a deposit. I sort of saw myself getting rammed into; I saw myself being mugged, and I saw a security deposit and two and half month’s rent just walking away. Plus, I mean, couldn’t you rent a car and drive to Latin America to rent a black market lens for that money. That didn’t happen. The renting. It was a wasted trip and I freaked a little because I had no idea how I was going to take photos for tomorrow. The place is by Chelsea. Walked down to fourteen and decided to buy a card reader for about thirty bucks. For whatever reason, I asked the sales assciociate if there were any D Nikkor lens for sale? Yes. Long story short, I ended up buying a 50mm-200mm af lens. I mean, it’s pretty cool. It takes a little getting used to. Reaching out and focusing. It’s small too. Anyway, this new thing enabled me to hide in the bushes in Union Square Park and stalk people. I spent about three hours just getting used to finding subjects and taking shots of them in passing in the lens. It was a challenge but good practice. I then ran into some people I used to hang out with in High School who know a friend of a friend (Lily, who lives on Ave C, remember?) so it was this really awkward drug haggling moment where I took quick portraits and decided to run away from them.
What sucks is that I have to switch from my 18-50mm to the 50mm-200mm lens. It drives me crazy because I have to get a little quicker before missing a shot. I feel like I can't focus quick enough and the fact that the lighting is so erratic in Union Square Prk makes it even more tense. It’s sort of like boot camp or the army though. I have to practice in the dark room with a stop watching. What’s funny is that the first time I learned how to reel undeveloped film, it was in a pitch black room and it was like army training. GO GO GO REEL REEL REEL. But these are what I did. There are about 200 photos of the crowd and the streets and very few shots of candid strangers and not-so candid strangers. In the end, I really like honing in on people. The color is really washed out, a lot of this might have to due with the fact that my iso was too high, my exposure compensation was wrong, and I was a very nervous ninja at first. It’s all so washed out. I don’t really know how to fix any of these in photoshop to make them alright. No idea where to start because if I sharpen, I’ll loose the bookah going, it might just need a little simple adjusting. But it was too much work.
( maybe i should make my project: lonely in public spaces. )
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[03 Jul 2008|03:39am] |
I almost dated Mike. He's one of the first people I seriously considered entering a serious relationship with after about a year and half of avoiding relationships completly. We stopped talking. He gets really bad sometimes and does a lot of shit and ends up taking his frustrations and bad highs out on me; especially when I don't allow him to cling or tend not to return his calls until a few days later, so what. In any event, we've been talking a lot lately. Today at work, it sucked and there was this moment where I thought, man, I need a lot of drugs, or a few drinks. But it lulled and I actually picked up his call. After about an hour talking to each other, he invites me to his sweet ass country house. As if his fly ass apartment in the l.e.s. wasn't enough. Uh, aha, anyway. He sends me this text. It's the best text I've ever gotten. If I typed it up, well, I don't know if that would have captured the experience.
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| my ac is broken, kill me. |
[10 Jun 2008|04:24pm] |
A few weeks ago I went out and bought a disposable point and shoot camera because I wanted to take pictures really bad but I didn't have my slr camera with me (despite coming from class). This was also the night I spent like three hours sitting around playing ninetendo ds sober while my friends were taking forever to meet up with me. Only a few came out and the exposure wasn't all that bad, I'm impressed. Anyway. I have class again. I don't want to go again but that would be twice. Anyway, these pics are from the Darkroom Monday night M party by Ruff and I think Krames was DJing, not that anyone cares. I don't even care, but I think that's his foot in this photo. Also, yes. Two are awfully uneven because I cropped them.
Motherbrain is always photogenic, I hate him.
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| my boss thinks im going into work today |
[21 May 2008|01:33pm] |
I have been sick as shit for the past few days. But I sort of understand how to manipulate my camera now. A few nights ago I took photos while consciously manipulating functions. I failed at half of them. But it's still exciting to look and know what I did (wrong).
( wow this green tea sucks )
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[05 May 2008|04:38am] |
I refuse to be kind to your friendslist. Does anyone know of a webhost/service that is super fucking easy. I'm talking, geocities easy? Please help me. I was thinking about yahoo webhosting but I don't have windows.
Also, this is old but I forgot about it. I know it's cheesy. But it looks like he's about to come out of the screen and ringu you?
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| i actually wrote part one tuesday but never posted it. |
[01 May 2008|09:51am] |
PART ONE: “I woke up and there was no milk.”
( .. )
PART TWO: WET MOUTHS, DRY DICKS
( ... )
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| i have a flikr too? |
[22 Mar 2008|04:00am] |
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I'm a cunt. HV at Annex, outside a hookah bar, The Skinny & pregame plan dinner plans.
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( just the ones i like? )
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[08 Feb 2008|09:20pm] |
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Okay so. Here is something random, but I tried fucking everywhere. Do any of you guys know where I can buy an authentic pigeon wing? I want to make it part of a headwrap with thise cool suede headwrap I have. But I want to buy it and they keep directing me to like ..... eadable pigeon sites. And I'm not balls enough to scoop up a pigeon corpse and rip it's wing off for fashion.
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[18 Jan 2008|04:37pm] |
I'm in a lazy and depressed mood. More on that later I suppose. But look!
Nikon Zoom Telephoto AF Zoom Nikkor 70-300mm f/4.0-5.6D ED Autofocus Lens ($309)
That means I would have to start picking up shifts at other stores to get it.
I think this is the lens Nick uses. I always remember seeing him lurking around Mario style with a gigantic telescope lens.
But: $ 1,124.95
Aha. This would be the coolest. Seriously. But I feel like you need to really deserve a lens like that, you know?
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[09 Jan 2008|03:46am] |
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Ok, quick. Film or digital?
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